Friday, July 01, 2005

i am so caught up with my own world, my own things. girls and girls and more girls. i'll cringe if a guy asks me out. any guy other than , and i find myself searching for all kinds of excuses. whatsoever family gatherings, mugging with classmates and many more. how did i evolve into this liar? i know very well too. even if i were out with some other guy, i wouldnt be enjoying myself. they wouldnt be able to accept my silly nature, or the way i eat so much. maybe thats what best buds like alicia and est are for. we're so comfortable with each other, i really wonder, whats gonna happen if we cant go to the same jcs? ): that'll bloody suck. and est said she'll never put tj as 1 of her choices ): WELL I SAID. TJ'S GONNA BE MY SECOND CHOICE.i so wished we had affliation with vj, i wished mrs chan were still our principal, she would have made a wiser decision. even affliation with tj would do. the days with mrs chan were good, hell good. acjc kids must be so so lucky. (minhui,! that pretty senior in ac. we saw her in town today.)

mas and i had a little talk. she told me she couldnt answer the whole section b and c of the chem mid year paper.she thinks shes gonna score only 10%. i used to envy her. top jcs like vj and rj actually bothered to invite her, they went all way out to ensure she goes to their jc. she just needs an l1r5 of 20 or less. but after our little talk. i realise. i wouldnt want to be in her position. just think, so what if she has secured her place in rj? training takes up most of her time, her grades are not ideal, she isnt even given the opportunity to study, she has no time. whats the good of going to a top jc when u cannot manage your life, your time, and you cannot cope? her talent is recognised, i hope she will change her mind and go professional one day. and may her grades improve (:

X, out-


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